Girl Meets World

Updee...

2006-02-26T15:05:00.000-06:00

Apparently "updee" means something like "peace to all people" or "hello" or "goodbye" or something along those lines...I learnt that friday night from my new friend Blaire. He's the blackest white guy you'll ever meet. Really nice guy. I'm not a very dedicated 'blogger.com'er, woops. The theme for my church this year is "The Year Of Prayer". I didn't like the theme all that much at first because it's such a broad theme. Entitling a whole entire year "the year of prayer" is so...well, it's just so...regular. I mean, everyone knows that, as Christians, we should always pray...so why state the obvious right? But needless to say, I continued going to church despite the rather odd label for the year because I love Jesus. And, of course, God did what He seems to do a lot. He made me realize that I was really wrong. Using the theme "the year of prayer" is pure genius!! Think of everything that my pastor will be able to do with that, and all the things he'll be able to engrave into our hearts and minds.
There's something about a service where the pastor speaks about showing God's love to others that never fails to keep my attention. This is what my pastor spoke on today. He encouraged the church to be a church that accepts ABSOLUTELY EVERYONE!! He told this story of a scrubby looking teenage boy that had come into a church one sunday morning. The young man had piercings and tattoos all over his most likely unshowered body. He entered late and as he walked down the isle everyone in the congregation began turning their heads to stare. He continued to walk down the isle to the very front of the room and sat on the floor right in front of the stage where the pastor was preaching his message. I'm sure, if you've ever attended a sunday morning church survice, you can picture the awkwardness that would come of this. The already silent congregation grew even more silent as everyone either stared at the boy in utter amazement or flat out tried their best to pretend he wasn't there. Then suddenly from the back of the church one of the older gentlemen that was very proper (ya know, wore a suit every week and what not) and very respected in the church got up from his seat and began walking to the front. A few mutters broke out in the crowd because everyone of course was interested in what he might do. As he reached the front we walked directly to the boy's side and sat down next to him, and there he sat for the entire service. That story amazes me. Not because there was some life-changing outcome, because we actually don't even know the outcome, but just because of the love. That older man didn't see himself to be any better than that young man. I think that friendship is such a powerful thing. Can you imagine what it would be like to be going through one of the hardest times in your life and not have a single friend in the world that cared? Or to realize that you have done so many wrong things in your life that you probably don't even deserve to be forgiven for and to have nobody around to tell you that you ARE forgiven? Cuz I can't. So come on guys, show the love. How does that song go..."Jesus, friend of sinners...Jesus, Jesus, friend of mine..."
Oh, and shout out to Google Girl! You are my sunshine. I'll always be here for you!

Dry.

2006-02-02T15:04:00.000-06:00

On sunday the pastor of my church spoke on the times in our Christian walk that seem so blah...almost like being a Christian has become boring because nothing appears to become of it. That's exactly what it's been like for me the past couple of months. I guess there's not really words to explain it. At times it feels pointless because I continue to serve God (and there is nothing that would ever change that), but I just don't feel like I'm really doing anything outstanding. The message on sunday encouraged me because pastor Scott basically said that we all go through it at one point or another, and all there really is to do is to keep on keeping on. I'm so thankful for God's voice. That's one thing I know I can always count on. God speaks to me everyday. "Have faith that when you call my name I'll be there. I'll be right there." Hmm...what song is that? If you can tell me you win.....my unconditional love.
And someone tell me this...do you believe that in the end everything works itself out the way it's truly supposed to be? Really think about it. Boggles my mind sometimes.

St. Valentine

2006-01-30T12:44:00.000-06:00

There's this guy that lives in Winnipeg. His name is Mark and he's #8 on my myspace friends list. I've never actually met the guy, but he found me on myspace and added me so now we've been messaging back and forth a bit. He recently posted a blog that contained a variety of random things (which was hilarious, I laughed my ars off) and at the end of the blog he stated that he wanted to discover where Valentine's Day originated from....SO he has just posted a blog that contains the full story behind Valentine's Day. Now, what I'm going to do is copy and paste his blog onto my blog for all of you to read, because it's really good. Shout out to Mark if you're reading this....you're super cool! So here goes...

"A little research led to the solution of my Valentine's Day conundrum. We all know there was a saint Valentine, but what significance did this man have on the world? And why do we celebrate it today? First off, the date February 14 was in fact the date of his death. But why is it so important you might ask? Well Valentine was one of the first Christians of his time. And at the time Christianity was frowned upon. Therefor this resulted in his incarceration. Valentine was imprisoned to await his execution. As he waited in his prison cell, he began conversating with a jailor’s daughter. She too shared his views of Christianity and believed it was unjust to be executed based on it. Their friendship grew strong and on the day on his execution, Valentine left her a note ending in "From your Valentine" So on February 14, 269 A.D. Valentine was asked one last time to renounce his Christianity. He once again refused and was killed on that very day. It wasn’t until the 1800's when Valentines Day was commercialized and made popular. Tradition have transpired on that day for hundred of years, but today we know it as a time to share our love. So that’s my Valentine’s Day summary. And yes it’s entirely in my own words."

Sooo....for the record, I used to hate Valentine's Day, until today. It used to always be a day that reminded me I was alone, but now I just don't care. I mean, of course it sucks to be alone, but knowing what the day really represents has completely changed my perspective. That was good Mark, you're my hero.

News.

2006-01-26T16:00:00.000-06:00

I've just decided I don't like boys anymore..........fewijoapdsujfkclvnjkdalfuioacjkvlcdsjgfijsdklfjs!!! So there is no boy in my life...apparently there never really was. I just don't really like them anymore. I'm not gonna explain cuz, ya, I don't feel like it...but seriously, when you say something, MEAN IT!!! Please, for everyone else's sake, mean it!!!!
But much more importantly, I have an interview at Starbuck's tomorrow at 3:30...that's right all you hardcore CPC coffee drinkers, I know your jealous! They even gave me any drink I wanted while I filled out the application, for free!! They're looking for daytime staff, which is perfect for me....hellooooooooo Starbuck's!!! I also might be getting a job at this place called Convergys. It's a call in centre and they pay $9/hour, so I definitely wouldn't be mad if I got that job too.
So yes, that's my life as of right now. I'm doing well, very well. I still love Jesus, and I still love all of you.

The Boy...

2006-01-18T08:03:00.000-06:00

I have a crush on this boy, his name is Ryan. That's a really bad picture...we discovered that he doesn't take the greatest pictures because all the other ones are worse than this. It's funny because my brother's name is Ryan, and the name of the last guy I dated is Justin...which is the name of my other brother...weird. Oh and don't worry that's not my beer, I think beer is absolutely revolting and anyone who enjoys it must have burnt their tastebuds off. But yeah, that's him.

New Years and Toby...

2006-01-07T16:58:00.000-06:00

Meet Toby. He's my cousins dog, they live just down the road from us. Their whole family is in Florida right now so I am dog sitting for 10 days...I get to use their Avalanche truck in exchange for taking care of the dog. I thought that was an alright deal. Toby looks like a little rat. I don't really like little dogs very much, and he often gets annoying, but it's funny how little dogs have this way of forcing you to love them because they're so cute when they curl up on your lap and make little whining sounds. Toby is sleeping on my lap right now as I write this...that picture was taken about 3 minutes ago.
Now for my new years story...so me and a few of my friends got a hotel room at the Holiday Inn, it was a great time. Earlier on we had some other people come to hang out (like the boys, ewww), but most of them left after midnight. It's 11:59 pm with 10 seconds until 12 and we're all standing in the room watching the tv. We start counting down, "10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1..." we get to zero and everyone starts chearing, kissing, and whatever else. I'm standing beside my friend Ryan that I've known for a little while now and we're chearing and smiling, and then suddenly he turns to me and says, "will you go out with me?", and me not really expecting it says, "um, what? Seriously?", and he says, "yes. For real."...and so I took a second, thought to myself "he's a really cool guy" and then said "yes!" I guess we're not really friends anymore, lol. That's not really a detailed story, and in most cases I would be kicking myself right now because that was mostly a spontaneous and extremely caught up in the moment answer...but I figured, what the heck. And the weird part is, it's turned out pretty good. We go together oddly well, and I really like the guy. I'll post a picture as soon as I get one. And that's my story. I can now consider myself spontaneous and fun...and if it doesn't work out, I blame new years.
I miss you guys!

So yeeeeah...

2005-12-28T09:37:00.000-06:00

I think I should write a blog, because I haven't in a gnol time. I wrote long backwards just now for no good reason, and I was lovin' every second of it. I would just like to inform you all that I'm...oh wait, no I'm not. But I am glad to tell you that I...wait, no I didn't. Well last night my...no, no she didn't. I got nothin' guys. Life is good though. I hope no one takes offense to this, but I'm happy at home, and I am glad I'm staying. Gotta be honest. I haven't felt this happy in awhile. I've even made some new friends since I've been home. AND my new friend Ryan wants to come to church with me!! I'm actually SO excited!
But yeah, I got an iPod nano for Christmas...it's no big deal. lol, yeah I love the thing. I miss everyone, for real.
I just fixed up my resume, so now I must go in search of a job. Fun, fun. News years is totally in like 3 days!

Weird.

2005-12-14T02:19:00.000-06:00

I’m gonna be totally honest. It’s 2:06am and the only reason I’m blogging is because I’ve got clothes in the dryer. I am currently eating a can of “diced pineapples”…a.k.a sliced pineapples…I’m not entirely sure where they got the whole diced thing from, but whatever works I guess. I’m eating these dicedalicious pineapples with a knife because I didn’t want to cut my mouth on the side of the can, and a knife was all I had…so instead I would rather cut my mouth with the knife, I suppose. It tastes weird because I brushed my teeth not even 5 minutes ago. Gag.
I decided about 10 minutes ago that I no longer enjoy the word “emo”. Seriously, we use it too much. It’s like when you say a word over and over and over again, one after the other, it eventually loses it’s meaning…well that’s what will happen to the word emo. We’re gonna kill it, and then we won’t have a word for when we’re feeling sad, depressed, lonely, upset, angry, mad, annoyed, shy, quiet, vulnerable, self-conscious, bored, lost, doomed, helpless, useless, crusty, grouchy, poopy, ronchy, stinky, sweaty, ugly, embarrassed, awkward, gross, and blah! Now that, is emo!!
My Dad called me tonight. He told me to pack my things cuz he is going to be coming through Saskatoon tomorrow so he’s gonna pick everything up…I’m really leaving guys. I really am. I have mixed feelings, but I’m sure it’ll all work out.
Anyone know where I can buy a canoe?
I am just sooooooo emo right now...seriously...where's my emo pills?

It's not you, it's me...

2005-12-12T01:13:00.000-06:00

Life's so short. It's too short for me to sit around feeling sorry for myself about things, when I could be taking the sucky things in my life and helping other people with the sucky things in their life. Of course there are times that we need to be selfish, but generally I need to slap myself in the face and say "quit it! I could die tomorrow! Do I really want to die with sadness and bitterness in my heart?" Of course not.
I have a friend. His name is Benjamin Hancock. I've known him since before kindergarden, and we were always pretty good friends. Ben is one of the happiest and upbeat people I've ever met. About 3 years ago Ben found out that he had a large tumour in his brain. Through all of the surgeries, chemo, and everything else that comes along with having cancer in your brain, never once did I see Ben down and feeling sorry for himself. On December 20th of this year, 2005, it will have been a year since my friend Ben passed away. It'll be a rough day, because we all miss him so much. It's hard to believe he's actually gone. Ben died only a couple of days after his 18th Birthday.
Life is short. Honestly, I think the saying "carpe diem - seize the day!!" is super cheesey, but it's true. Everything will work out in the end, so I want to focus on today.

Well it's about time!

2005-12-08T14:29:00.000-06:00

I have this friend…she’s my best friend. We’ve been best friends pretty much since the day we met when we were 4 years old. She’s half Asian, which makes her super cool. When we were little youngling’s we used to spend all the time together that we possibly could. I can remember going over to her house and putting about 10 cardboard boxes together in a line and pretending it was a train. We would put our dolls in there, and colour the boxes so they looked all pretty. We used to play with our dolls in her parents room because it was the biggest room in the house, and then Richard Hanson would barge into the room and for some odd reason think that he could just fit right in with us…even though he’s a BOY! This friend of mine, of course, is Sarah Kendrick. I can remember wanting so badly to go over to her house so I could watch Goosebumps, and Are You Afraid Of The Dark with her and Joe because I wasn’t allowed to at my house. We used to make our own beds on the floor of the upstairs living room and have sleepovers in there. The only reason I remember this is because Sarah used to tell me that if the flame blew out on their fireplace the whole house would blow up…and of course I was the one that was always put right beside the fireplace to sleep. I wouldn’t be able to sleep for hours because I was terrified that I might accidentally sneeze or breathe too heavily and cause the flame to go out. As the years went by that story eventually turned into that if the flame was blown out the house would immediately be filled with gas and we would all suffocate. Either way, the story freaked me out all the same. For Halloween we would dress up as strawberry and blueberry shortcake, turn the vegietales theme song on, and make our own music video in the hallway of her house. One time we pretended that we had our own baking show and we made cookies together. I can also remember Sarah forcing me to have tea parties with her, even though I hated tea. I think I pretended I liked it just cuz I love her so much. When we had sleepover's I used to hate sharing the bed with Sarah cuz she slept with her eyes half open and would always end up all mangled and pretty much laying right on top of me. I can remember one time I barely got any sleep because her foot was on my face the whole night, and because of my kind and caring heart I didn't move it because I didn't want to wake her up.
I wanted to write a blog about Sarah because she has always been so important in my life. No matter where we are in life we know that nothing will ever change our friendship and we are always there for each other. A friendship like mine and Sarah’s is something that I have learnt to never take for granted, because it is so special and rare. Sarah has shown me what it means to have a true friend…and what it’s like to date someone twice your age (sorry Sarah, I had to put it in there somewhere). The trust that you have in a best friend is something that you don’t come by very often.
Sarah and I will be becoming roommates once again this coming January, and I cannot tell you how freakin’ excited I am for that day!!! Saskatoon watch out, that’s for sure! It’ll be like us being roommates in dorm all over again…except without rules.
Sarah’s also got a really cool brother by the name of Joseph…I’ll save that one for another blog…

If only I were perfect...

2005-12-04T15:44:00.000-06:00

I've come to realize that I need a lot of prayer. It's been hard for me to finally reach the point of writing this blog, because I usually just figure I can do it on my own, but this time I can't. I need people to pray for me. I can see my pride flying out the window as we speak...It feels terrible and good at the same time. So whether I like it or not, could you please pray for me if you feel the need?

My empty room, and unfinished homework...

2005-11-29T02:00:00.000-06:00

So it's offically 2 o'clock in the AM...I'm not at all tired because of course, me being a genius and all, I decided to get up for my 9:30 class this morning at 9:20 and then go back to bed right after the class ended at 10:10...and then sleep until 1 o'clock in the afternoon!!!! And now, I'm not tired. Because of the hour that it is my brain has shut off, so I can no longer do homework. My roommate has now gone to bed so I can no longer talk to her. I really love my roommate. We talked for a very long time tonight about a bunch of things, and I've come to realize what a wonderful person she is. I think it must be because we have a lot in common. I really noticed that tonight, we're actually a lot alike. I'm proud of you Piper...you definitely struck gold on this one. And so, the point of my blog is...well...there is no point. I don't like not having a point to my blog, but I haven't posted in awhile, so I figured it was time...plus I can't sleep. There is one thing I could tell you though. I might need a place to live next semester...yes here in Saskatoon. Preferably not in the dumpster, or with a bunch of stinky boys. This whole time I just kinda figured I'd be moving back home, but I still have this funny feeling in my gut that I shouldn't. Mainly because I have no Christian friends back home and I tend to be a weak person when put under pressure (yes I know, I have issues)...so now I'm just all confused as to what I should to. If I went home it would be free. But I would probably get there and immediately regret it. God called me here to Saskatoon this year, and all I'm doing really is taking a break from school because I know I need it...but where do I go? Does anyone know where I could live? And work? I know Superstore is hiring. Me and my friend Branden (Bobby's bestfriend, for those of you that remember Bobby, haha!) decided that if I stay we would go work there together. So should I do that? But if I went home I could pay off the money I owe from school this semester so much faster. AHHH...someone please tell me what to do!
And by the way...___________ will you please be my boyfriend??? Who am I wanting to be my boyfriend, you're probably wondering. It's not likely that I'm going to tell you, HA!

ME!

2005-11-19T18:42:00.000-06:00

A- Age of your first kiss: Well...when we were little kids I held Josh down and kissed him passionately...so technically that was the first for both of us. But if you're talking "real" kiss, then it was when I was 16.
B- Band you are listening to right now: Nothing, I'm watching Fear Factor at Eva's...she's not even here, this is weird.
C- Crush: Do I look like an open book to you?
D- Drink you drank last: Better lemon lively smoothie from Orange Julius
E- Easiest person to talk to: Hmm...Ash, Eva, Justin, Big Rash Matt B, my pillow...oh wait, that's not a person...
F- Favorite ice cream: Mint chocolate chip
G- Gummy worms or gummy bears: bears
H - Height: 5'7 1/2"
I- Instruments: ...cow bell...ya that's right.
J- Jelly Flavor: Raspberry
K- Kids: I'm pregnant...I'll let you feel my tummy someday if you want...lol, "feel the baby!!"
L- Longest car/bus ride: Probably when we took a family roadtrip to Arizona...wow, long. Think of being in a car for 2 days strait and that's what it was.
M- Major issue: Being interrupted, or 1 sided phone calls...seriously, why are you having a conversation with me if I can't even say anything?
N- Nicknames: Megz, Megster, Meggy, Fegan, Sizzlin, Sweet Peas
O- One wish: To know what I'm supposed to do with my life. Can someone just tell me? Please.
P- Phobia: Somehow ending up inside the movie "Saw", and people coming out of the floor...haha, you know what I mean Justin! Give me my money!
Q- Quote: "Maybe yes...maybe no..."
R- Reason to smile: yellow jello
S- Shoe size: 8 1/2
T- Time you woke up today: 9ish
U- Unknown fact about me: My name starts with "M"............what? Did you think I was gonna tell you something you could blackmail me with??
V- vegtables: Colliflower with cheese melted on top, and celery.
W- Worst Habit: Being a pushover
X- Xmas gift you really want: Digital camera would be nice, but mostly I just want to move home.
Z-Zodiac sign: I dunno, the fish I think...what's that one? Pisces or somethin'.

So aparently I am still alive...

2005-11-04T11:34:00.000-06:00

I know, I know...how dare I quit blogging and then spontaneously decide to return to it! Shame on me, I'm sorry. My life got really crappy lately, and blogging was the last thing I wanted to do. I have never felt the need to drag all of you into the bad parts of my life...I mean, how would it benefit you in any way? It wouldn't. So the truth is, I quit because I had better things to do, and more important things to worry about. But now, I'm on the right track...I'm getting things figured out. I'm not planning on writing about what exactly I've been going through, because honestly I don't want anyone to know...but if you ask I may tell you...maybe. But know that if I do tell you it's probably only because I know that by telling people I am getting rid of my secrets so that my enemy cannot use them against me. I've taken action, so please don't worry about me. I am so far behind on my school work now because I stopped caring about school with all of this other "junk" going on. For those of you that live in dorm, you may have noticed that last night was the first night that I've slept in dorm in over a week. I feel terrible for this, but it was because of many different reasons...one being that I went home for the weekend. I talked to Mrs. Antle yesterday. I told her that I've been messing up lately. She prayed for me and encouraged me. I also talked to Mr. Cressman today. He is allowing me to redo some things that I have gotten behind on...what a wonderful man. I've come the the realization that my life has been so crappy because I made it that way. A friend of mine, Matt thug life Brotzel, after telling him everything that's been going on lately in my life, told me that he thinks it's wrong for me to be sulking and feeling sorry for myself because Jesus already died on the cross for my sins, and if I'm just sulking then what did he even do that for? All of it would be for nothing. I was also talking to another friend of mine, Joel awesome Henderson, and I had basically been saying that I feel so bad coming back to God everytime I mess up, and he asked me this, "God forgives everyone...What makes you so special that you think you don't deserve to be forgiven? What makes you so different from everyone else?"
I thank God that He has placed such wonderful people in my life to help me get back on my feet. I'm gonna spend some time writing about a few select people that have really stuck out to me in the past few weeks through my hard times.
First of all there's Eva, she's always been there for me. Then there's Matt thug life Brotzel, because he was willing to listen to me, and that's all I needed. He gave me some of the best advice I've ever gotten in my life. And of course my friend Joel, he was also willing to listen and give me advice. There's my friend Jaime who is doing YWAM in California right now. She probably doesn't even realize that she's helped me through this. Her letters have been so encouraging to me. There's Mrs. Antle and Mr. Cressman. There's Scotty because he always asks me how I'm doing, and he means it. There's Luke, because he gives me good hugs. There's Joshy, because we talk about our struggles together. There's Steph, because she gives me a huge every single time she sees me. There's my roommate, because she's so awesome! There's Justin, because he doesn't get mad at me when I call him at 4 am crying. There's Wendy, because she's so cute and always shows me a smile that I can't help but return. There's Shannon, because everytime she sees me she says "where have you been all my life?" or "I love you!". I know there's more...but I don't feel like writing anymore. I love you guys!!!

Anti-Blogger

2005-10-24T15:56:00.000-05:00

I've decided that I don't really like blogging anymore. I mean, maybe I will in a week or two, just not right now. And it doesn't help that like an hour ago I wrote a big long blog about my life lately and then it got deleted...so now I really don't like it. I'm sorry Wendy...it's just not gonna happen this time. Maybe it will be better next time.
Sometimes I wish I could be totally transparent. That way I could write exactly what's on my heart, my mind, and what's going on in my life. But I can't, because I don't trust most of you. No offense.
I don't like blogging!!
"I love Liiiiife!!!" - Kalen Porter

"Housekeeping..."

2005-10-12T14:17:00.000-05:00

I say housekeeping because it reminds me of my friend Ashley from back home in Winnipeg. She says this a lot and I really miss her, haha. I had the privilege of going home this weekend and spending time with my friends and family. As a result of the weekend I returned to Saskatoon having almost no sleep and an overly full stomach, but was feeling happy. Friday night after getting home I had to wait up until 3:30am for Ashley and her boyfriend Travis to come visit me after they were done at the bar. And then they ended up bringing some other old friends from highschool, Chad and Matt. It was super awesome to see these guys, especially Matt because he left my school after grade 9, so I haven't seen him since then...plus I had the hugest crush on him all of grade 9. I ended up hanging out with Ashley, Travis, and Matt basically the whole weekend. Matt looks exactly like Kalen Porter...you know the dude who won the last Canadian Idol! So that was pretty funny because everywhere we went there would be people going "hey it's Kalen Porter" or "can I get your autograph?" I thought that was pretty cool. I felt like I was really hanging out with someone famous, except I wasn't at all.
The last while I have really been needing to be encouraged spiritually, and I wasn't getting it from anywhere. I know that's probably my fault because I haven't exactly been searching for it. But I guess I was feeling kinda selfish and wanted the encouragement to come to me. So I was sitting in Tech for Min class today and we had to do some search thing on yahoo in the "religion" section. I clicked on some spiritual warfare link and on the site there was this article that was exactly what I needed to hear. I'll let you read it. Hopefully it will encourage you like it did me...

WHAT IF GOD DIDN'T WANT YOU?
There are many reasons why God would not want you--
but don't worry. You're in good company.
Moses stuttered.
David's armor didn't fit.
John Mark was rejected by Paul.
Hosea's wife was a prostitute.
Amos' only training was in the school of fig-tree pruning.
Jacob was a liar.
David had an affair.
Solomon was too rich.
Abraham was too old.
David was too young.
Timothy had ulcers.
Peter was afraid of death.
Lazarus was dead.J
ohn was self-righteous.
Naomi was a widow.
Paul was a murderer.
So was Moses.
Jonah ran from God.
Miriam was a gossip.
Gideon and Thomas both doubted.
Jeremiah was depressed and suicidal.
Elijah was burned out.
John the Baptist was a loudmouth.
Martha was a worrywart.
Mary was lazy.
Samson had long hair.
Noah got drunk.
Did I mention that Moses had a short fuse?
So did Peter, Paul--well, lots of folks did.
But God doesn't require a job interview.
He doesn't hire and fire like most bosses, because He's more our dad than our boss.
He doesn't look at financial gain or loss.
He's not prejudiced nor partial, not judging, grudging, sassy, nor brassy, not deaf to our cry, not blind to our need.
As much as we try, God's gifts are free.
We could do wonderful things for wonderful people and still not be...wonderful.
Satan says, "You're not worthy."
Jesus says, "So what? I AM."
Satan looks back and sees our mistakes.
God looks back and sees the Cross.
He doesn't calculate what you did in '98.
It's not even on the record.
Sure. There are lots of reasons why God shouldn't want us.
But if we are in love with Him, if we hunger for Him more than our nextbreath, He'll use us in spite of who we are, where we've been or what we look like.
Step out of your limitations into the illimitable nature of who God is.
--Author unknown.

Blitz...I like you!

2005-10-03T13:21:00.000-05:00

So I'm sitting here in Eva's apartment. Eva's in the shower, Michelle is taking a nap, and I'm sitting here on the couch racking my brain for something to write a blog about. I mean, my last one was so good and happy that I didn't want to ruin it by talking about anything else. But then I remembered...I went on a blitz trip yesterday, and then I remembered...it was awesome! The only sucky part was that I had to wake up at 6:00 am, but other than that it was wonderful. Our team consists of Amanda Hacking (Oh how I love her...she protects me from boys...haha, you know what I mean Amanda), Russell, Charlotte, Phil, Marilee, and Kristine. I could not ask for a better team, seriously. I am so excited about blitz this year. I have never had such a fun van ride in my entire life! We went to a small town called Edam...or something like that, don't know how to spell it. It was a 2 and a half hour drive, so that was interesting. We started the service off with our "He Is" drama. Phil didn't really know what he was doing, haha. After that me, Charlotte, Marilee, and Phil got to go downstairs with all the kids to do the kids church while Amanda spoke upstairs to the adults. The kids were amazingly unbelievable. I hadn't been having a very good day, but those kids just totally changed that. After the service we had a potluck lunch with the whole church, which was super good. Me, Phil, and Russell sat at the kids table. They are absolutely crazy. The kids put cake icing and buns with butter all over the van windows. On the ride back we got some funny pictures of Russell changing the oil in the van wearing the Jesus costume. Ohh good times. I can't wait til our next trip.

2005-09-28T11:30:00.000-05:00

I think that I'm a very happy person. Usually if I'm feeling down I'll just keep it to myself, which probably isn't always a good thing...but least I don't pass the bad mood on to those around me. I've decided to write a blog about all the many things that bring me hapiness. God being #1 of course, but that's just a given. So here it is...feel free to reply and let me know what makes YOU happy!

-The word "beautiful"
-Froot Loops
-Grapefruits
-Grapefruit juice
-Pink grapefruit jelly belly's
-Pink grapefruit candles
-Waffles
-A smiling face with nice white teeth
-Horses
-The smell of a horse barn
-The smell of fresh cut grass
-The smell of rain
-Michael Jordan scoring the winning basket
-Michael Jordan anything
-Wendy's princess bedtime story
-Justin's laugh
-The way Sarah talks
-Ashley's little girlness
-Erin's humour
-Sophia's hardcore gangsta-ness
-My brothers "Iloveyoubye"
-My other brothers gullibleness
-Eva's hatred toward Satan the cat
-Melissa's stories
-Steph's innocence
-Baby blue
-Watermelon
-Chinese food
-Geekyness
-The awkwardness of a first date
-A new pair of jeans that you know look amazing
-A new hair color
-Popcorn with dill pickle flavouring
-Iced tea
-Tropicana orange juice...no pulp!
-Mint chocolate chip ice cream
-Grape kool-aid explosion blizzards
-Pop rocks
-Blended creme strawberries and creme from Starbuck's
-Sitting in Starbuck's
-Ichiban (beef)
-Cool Runnings
-Sean Penn
-Denzel Washington
-Bryce Avary
-Michael Jackson
-Kissing (yes it's true...)
-The fact that Jason's initials spell out JC Penney
-Wendy's missionary dating boyfriend
-Boy Meets World
-Boy Meets World night
-A cold pillow when I crawl into bed
-Sour green apple slurpies
-Home cooked meals
-A new crush

Wow, I'll stop now. That was intense. I feel all happy now.

Hey Whiney!

2005-09-20T15:27:00.000-05:00

Do you ever just want to complain about a bunch of random things that bother you sometimes? Well today is one of those days. I don't think I usually complain a lot because I would probably be annoying. But sometimes it builds up and I just wish I could tell everyone all the things that bother me about the world. A blog would be perfect for this...but I'm not going to drag the rest of you down with me. Afterall, it might just get you worked up as well, and then you would feel like venting, and then we would all be bitter at the world. Now don't get me wrong, I am actually having a wonderful day...I just wanna whine a little bit. Today something came up that got me kinda weirded out and confused. When things like what happened today happen it just really makes me wonder what would possess someone to act in this way. Something else has been going on for about 3 days now with someone else...which is really confusing!! I have no idea what's going on there! Haha, k sorry I'll stop now.
Last night I slept over at Eva's, that was a great time. We went and saw the movie The Island. I really like all the people that I go to school with, I just haven't really found anyone that I could connect with...someone that I can talk to about stuff. But I found Eva. She's been such a blessing so far this year. She lives out of dorm so it gives me a chance to get away, and she's so much fun to be around. I couldn't ask for more. And then of course my roomate Melissa. I was worried I would be with a roomate that I couldn't really get along with...but it didn't turn out that way at all. She has been so awesome! Plus she doesn't snore, which is always nice.
Sarah, if you're reading this, I'm gonna see if I can use Steph and Starla's phone soon so I can call you. I have so many things that are going on in my life that I have to tell you about!
...K well maybe there's no SO many, but it feels like there's a lot.
I think I'm gonna apply at Superstore everyone...what do you think? Boy Meets World night tonight after night class at 9:30!!

"Someone hasn't gotten his telegram yet..."

2005-09-16T14:02:00.000-05:00

For those of you who are a part of the "hip, and with it" crowd, you will know that this quote is made by the famous Stuart Minkus of Boy Meets World during the Boy Meets Girl episode of Season 1. Last night was by far my favorite night of the CPC 2005/2006 year thus far. It started with about 4 of us (Me, Matt, Sheldo, and Josh...Josh Brown that is) planning on watching Boy Meets World after a few of us were finished our Addictions Councelling night class at 9:30...and to my non-amazement there ended up being about 15 people that showed up to watch! I say non-amazement because the fact that people would actually want to watch Boy Meets World certainly does not amaze me...I mean, who wouldn't want to? I must say, last night I went to bed happy. We watched my favorite episode of all time, which is of course Boy Meets Girl. This is the episode in which both Cory and Sean start liking girls.
My addiction to Boy Meets World all started during Christmas break of my grade 11 year. I had always liked the show but had never appreciated its true potential up until this point. My family and I had been on vacation in Florida and my brothers and I were hardcore bored this particular evening. So we curled up on the couch of our hotel room and turned on the TV. There weren't very many options, so after spotting Boy Meets World I said, "hey, that's a good show, let's watch that one". It just so happened that the show was playing different episodes repeatedly all night. The first one that was on was when they were all in college already and it was this episode that Sean's ability to write poetry was revealed. They had a stage set up in what I like to call the "pool playing room"...you know the room where everyone plays pool and hangs out...and anyway, the stage was there for anyone to read poems they had written. What got me hooked was Cory reading off his poems. I lost control of my laughter when he walked up on stage to read probably his fifth poem, all of which had been about Tapanga, and as the bongo drums played he suddenly proclaimed "TAPANGA!!"...and that was the poem...me and my brothers were laughing so hard.
And then the next episode that was being played was back in their highschool days when Eric was in his grade 12 year. He had been applying at different colleges trying to simply get accepted into at least one of them. He had received a fake acceptance letter, and although he knew it was fake he started telling everyone about the college he had been accepted to. Finally Mr. Feeny had to break the news to Eric that the college he was planning on going to was actually a fake, and Eric then told Mr. Feeny that he had known the whole time but he just wanted people to think he could at least get accepted. Right at the end of the episode as Eric and Mr. Feeny are talking Eric says, "Hey Feeny, that girl over there thinks she's going to some school called Duke...should I tell her or should you?" And that settled it, right there in Florida, Boy Meets World was officially my favorite show ever!
And that's the story of my life...that's basically all you need to know. I guess you could call it "the key to my heart"...Boy Meets World.

I Wish I Were A Kid Again.

2005-09-13T18:51:00.000-05:00

When I was a little girl my bestfriend in the whole wide world (other than Jesus of course) was a girl by the name of Melissa Burky. We did absolutely everything together right from when we started school all the way until grade 8. We would spend everyday at school together and every evening playing together, and when we couldn't be together in the evening we would most definitely be talking on the phone. She was the one and only person that I felt absolutely comfortable with. She was never a Christian. Her parents didn't believe in going to church or celebrating any holidays (even though she still got presents for most of them, haha). But I remember I would always tell her about Jesus and I would always get her to pray with me. The funniest part is that I used to tell her that sometimes you have to pray on your own. So we would sit in her bedroom and for like 15 minutes wouldn't say anything because I told her we had to pray by ourself. She was always open to it and I never felt any shame in telling her about my Jesus. Thinking back on my times with Melissa is why I sometimes wish I was a kid again. I was never embarrassed to ask her to pray with me even though there will always be that awkwardness of asking. Sometimes I don't really know how to bring the subject up with my friends so I just leave it alone. I've got myself convinced that just by setting a good example they will figure it out on their own. And although the whole good example part plays a huge role, I know deap down that at some point I should at least talk to them about it. Especially when they're close friends. I wish I could learn to be fearless...like SuperGirl. I think that's why I like the theme song from The Princess Diaries so much. "I'm supergirl, and I'm here to save the world". This one time me and my friend Kim from Estevan changed the words and made it into "I'm superChristian, and I'm here to save the world"...that was our theme song. I'm not gonna lie, The Princess Diaries is a good movie...not that it has anything to do with anything that I'm talking about right now.
But anyways, in the end, Melissa moved away after grade 8 and I only saw her a couple times after that. We talked occasionally but eventually lost touch. After not seeing her for about 2 years she came into the place where I was working and we talked for a little bit. I got really sad after seeing her though because I kept wondering about what her life was like. I remember her parents fighting almost everytime I was over, and she used to call me all the time with her problems. I wish I knew if she remembers me praying with her. #5 on my list of things that I want to do before I die is to hang out with Melissa Burky again.

Sicky...

2005-09-11T23:51:00.000-05:00

I'm sick................feel sorry for me. I dunno how but I just suddenly got a cold last night, and now I'm all sick and stuff. I made myself some neocitron earlier, it didn't really help much. Josh suprised me with some tea from Tim Horton's, that was very nice of him. The tea helped a bit...but about half an hour ago I decided to walk to the bank because I'm absolutely bored out of my mind...except it's freezing out so now I'm even more sick. I wish I had a friend to be bored with that would tell me that everything will be alright. I cleaned my room about 3 times today I think, I typed all my notes that I have so far, I read a lot of my Bible, I've sat on the computer for about 3 hours, I tried taking a nap but couldn't fall asleep...I am SO bored! Tomorrow I've only got one class (9:30am-10:10am), and then once again I have nothing to do all day. Wow.
*Aww...Byron just came in and was reading what I was typing, and then suddenly he was like, "Everything's gonna be alright Megan". Haha, I really like that guy.*
I applied at Winners today. Hopefully I can get a job there. I also talked to Cody a few hours ago...I'm gonna hang out with him and Branden pretty soon cuz they're living in Saskatoon together (Branden is Bobby's bestfriend by the way...I hope it's not awkward hanging out with him, cuz I haven't seen him since before I broke up with his bestfriend).
Wow...I'm gonna go make some food or something, just for the heck of it.

So good to be back!

2005-09-10T22:48:00.000-05:00

Hey guys! I've got such good news. I'm back in Saskatoon, and so far so good. I love it here. My roomate is SUPER cool! Her name in Melissa Young and I recognize her from the lake. Her sister Jennie goes here as well and their from Kenora, Ontario. I don't have too many good stories yet, but there will be many to come. It's saturday night and Josh and I are absolutely bored. A group of us have just been sitting around all night cuz it's pouring and storming outside and there's nothing to do. A few of them started this game with a bag of grapes...basically you just throw the grapes from far away and try to get it in someone's mouth, kinda like grape basketball I guess. Anyways, I didn't join in because I have always been afraid that the grape will get wedged in my throat and I'll choak and die. So Josh decided that I needed to learn how, and me being a very trusting friend decided to let him teach me. He told me to open my mouth wide, so I did, and suddenly he totally unexpectedly hucked that freakin' grape as hard as he could at my mouth...good thing he missed and it just hit my face. Of course after this I don't trust him at all, but the guy just wouldn't give up on teaching me how to catch it in my mouth. But I wouldn't give in. He bagged, and he whined, and he yelled, and he pointed fingers...so finally out of frustration I opened my mouth wide and put my face really close to his and said "here teach me how!!" And he did just that. He once again huck the same grape as hard as he possibly could, except this time did not miss. The grape went directly down my throat, I gagged, and it came shooting back out just as fast as it went it. With that Josh took off running down the hall. I chased him as far as guys down, and couldn't really do much after that. But I would have to say that this very story has so far been the most exciting story I've got so far.
Well...I don't really have much else to write about. I'm gonna talk Josh into going to Timmy's with me. I just really wish there was something to do on a saturday night.
Oh yeah! I'm getting married. As of tonight....haha...you know who you are. ahh, good times when there's nothing else to talk about.

Yes, I'm a liar...

2005-09-05T20:58:00.000-05:00

Apparently I'm a liar, cuz I said next time I'd be blogging I would be in Saskatoon...except I'm not in Saskatoon yet. I should be, but I'm not. Dad decided to bring me tomorrow instead of today, so I'm stuck at home for another night. I had even gotten past the missing Winnipeg and all the people and was really excited to get to Saskatoon. But I'll be there soon enough tomorrow, with all my stuff. I'll be pulling up in a huge white Semi (how do you spell that?) truck with my Dad, and I'll be as excited as ever to see everyone and to meet my new roomate.
So I got a speeding ticket on saturday...that wasn't very fun. $235! It hurts. Especially when I've been working so hard to save every penney that I make. I feel like such an idiot.
I got to see Steve Mitchell at the lake this weekend. He gave me a huge hug when I saw him. I'm sure gonna miss having him around the school, he was always like me and Sarah's big brother. Last night he overheard me telling someone that Jesus was the only boy in my life and he goes, "And it better stay that way. There better not be any other boy that starts with J or any other letter!" I'm also really gonna miss having Sarah, Erin and Sophia around. It's gonna be weird. Oh well though, things change. People come and go, but they will always be my friends. And then there's Jaime...wow. She's gonna be in California! I spent so much time with her this summer that it's been really hard for me to say goodbye. She's gonna meet all these new awesome people at YWAM and I'm gonna be so jealous. It's okay though, cuz I know she's gonna miss me just as much as I miss her. And there's also Laura, Ashley, Marcin, Alex, Scott, Edma, Jaime, Larissa, and Andrea from Old Navy. And of course Greg. All of them are new friends, but they're awesome friends. I'm gonna miss Sarah a lot. Sarah, I need you to be my roomate again!!! I'm bagging you! Having a new roomate will be awesome, but it was so nice to have someone that I felt completely comfortable with because I've know her for so long. Oh well, God obviously has some interesting plans for this year...why wouldn't he?

I'll miss you Old Slavey!

2005-09-02T20:59:00.000-05:00

I usually have a game plan before I start to write a blog...but this time I have no idea what to write about. I'm leaving tomorrow after work for the lake, and then on monday I'm leaving from the lake to go to Saskatoon. I'm having mixed emotions about the whole thing. I'm excited to be back in Saskatoon to see everyone again, but I almost considered not going because I really like the people that I work with at Old Navy. I know it sounds stupid, but I just really like it there. It would be so easy for me to just work there for a year and save up my money and then go back to school next year, except I can't cuz God wants me back and the plans are already made. I'm having a hard time trusting God right now because I don't have a job lined up in Saskatoon yet, and I really really NEED one! I have to be making a certain amount a month just to be able to pay off my line of credit so I can return to school the following year. Maybe I'll have to take a year off after this year...who knows. My parents have really been on me about getting a job and making a certain amount of money. They're basically saying that I won't be able to make enough to pay it. God'll pull through though...I don't think He really has a choice. Afterall I am doing what He wants.
Councelling...like seriously...I don't even know what kind of councelling I want to do! What a mess.
Well I gotta go get ready to hang out with the Old Navy crew! They're an awesome bunch. One of my managers is even picking me up so I don't have to drive...they're crazy!
Next time I blog I'll be in Saskatoon...

I stole your pictures Jaime...

2005-08-27T20:13:00.000-05:00

I'm sorry Jaime...I took the pictures that you had in your blog so I could show everyone that looks at my blog the pictures as well. Here are some pictures for everyone to look at and drool over because we are so freaking awesome. In the top one you can see how my face sort of looks disease infested...I promise it was just because my skin was peeling because I'm a big retard that doesn't use sunscreen. And in the bottom one, the other girl on the left is Jaime's sort of cousin Chantelle. She's a very nice girl. Man, last time it was a big hand, now this time it's a big tongue...look at that thing!!
Now on a more serious note, I noticed I haven't really talked about serious things in my blog lately. So I'm gonna talk about the first thing that comes to mind. So here goes...yesterday I was talking to my mom about this guy that I dated before that she really really likes a lot. As soon as I mentioned something about him she started saying all these nice things about him, so I asked her how she could like someone so much that she barely even knows, because she never really got the chance to get to know him. And she said to me, "well how could I not like someone that I don't know anything about." I think my mom is really cool for pointing something like that out to me. It's interesting to think about things in that way. Of course you can think negative and say "well I don't know them and their dating my daughter so they have to earn my respect." But, why? If you go into something expecting it to be bad, then 90% of the time that's probably what it will be...bad! So why not look on the bright side?
I'm going to leave you with the main lyrics of a song that plays at Old Navy. It goes a little somethin' like this,"Brown Brown Spaghetti...B-B-Brown Brown Spaghetti"...or at least that's what it sounds like to me. Seriously, you should hear it. I'm going to miss my Old Navy. Today was the last day I got to see my friend Michael before I leave...it was sad. We were buddies because we argued about everything. Maybe we were flirting, I don't really know.

"I want one!"

2005-08-23T22:48:00.000-05:00

This is my new baby cousin Ella Jane. The only way she's happy is if she's completely smothered in blankets, and even then she still tries shoving her face in even more...so that's why you can't really see her. She is the most perfect and most beautiful baby I have ever seen. So I've decided I want one, and if it ends up happening anytime soon I'm gonna blame it on Kelly (she's Ella's mom, the one holding her in the top picture). I know I'm too young and inmature and blah blah blah...but come on, at least let me daydream.

I was at Old Navy from 1-10 today. Being in that store for that amount of time puts me in a weird mood. Me and my friend Ashley started laughing so hard when we were trying to close up that we started crying...all because she said she was gonna spanish slap me...I don't even know what that means. Today was a good day though. The only thing that really sucks is that ever since I put my Puma shoes in the washing machine, they make my feet wreek like nasty pig breath...is that normal?

Until next time, here's to you...whoever you are.

P.S. Did anybody else notice that my hand looks abnormally large in the bottom picture? Seriously, what the heck?!

Well...

2005-08-22T12:27:00.000-05:00

Just found something out that I definitely didn't want to. I'm just kinda pissed off at the world right now. Please don't ask me about it, cuz I probably won't tell you.
A good thing is that I got 40 hours at Old Navy this week, so that will be helpful.
I don't feel like saying anything else. Bye.

Just look for me in every Motocross magazine...

2005-08-16T12:37:00.002-05:00

Well everyone...it's true, I'm back. I got back last night around 10:00pm. It was kind of a last minute decision that I made last week when I decided to go with my family to Millville, Minnesota, so not many people knew where I was. But I at least let everyone know that I thought it might be important to let them know...so if you knew ahead of time, consider yourself important...and if you didn't, well I'm just kidding, you're important too...I probably tried calling you about 50 times you just didn't answer.
So we left last monday at 10:30pm and drove until just after 3:00am, which wouldn't have been so bad if I wasn't forced to sit in the middle seat. But I never complained so I had a good additude about it the whole time, I was just excited to be going to the States. We stayed in some town that night in a Walmart parking lot and then the next morning continued on to some place just outside of Minneapolis. We shopped at Outlet malls all day tuesday and then drove to Minneapolis to stay in another Walmart parking lot that night. Wednesday morning we got up and drove strait to Millville, which is a tiny little town about 2 hours past Minneapolis. We passed through the town Red Wing where the Red Wing Shoe Company is...I had never heard of it before, but apparently they've been around for awhile, so congrats to them. We drove alongside the Mississippi river as well...that was fairly neat. There are some nice houses along there! We arrived at the Spring Creek track in Millville around 4:00pm on wednesday. The races started on friday and went on until sunday...sunday being the main event. There were over 20 000 people there to watch all the pros race. I got myself a pit pass so I could walk through the pro pits and meet all the pro riders...ok, so I didn't meet any of them, but I did see them. One of the magazine photographers snapped a picture of me while I was walking around in there, so there's a very slim chance that I may be in some dirtbiking magazine. I met a bunch of people and all of them called me Canada the whole weak...it didn't take long to get sick of all the questions about Canada. I met one guy named Tony from Florida...turns out he was 27 years old, so he was kinda like my big brother the whole time, always lookin' out for me, which was nice because there were a lot of crazy guys around there. I got beer poured down my shirt one night, that wasn't too fun. I got a bunch of people planning on making a trip up here just to see me, so that should be pretty sweet. Anyway, I don't really got much else to say...school starts soon, that should be fun. I'm looking forward to seeing everyone. If I'm going though, I need a job...any ideas anyone?

Just look for me in every Motocross magazine...

2005-08-16T12:37:00.001-05:00

Just look for me in every Motocross magazine...

2005-08-16T12:37:00.000-05:00

2005-08-06T23:54:00.000-05:00

I was looking through all my pictures from when I went to Europe last year. This is my favorite one because it looks like the ground is made of buildings that never end. I took this picture from the Acropolis in Greece. I want to go back to Europe...so if anyone ever wants to go, let me know.

Yes I do have a skin disease...keep staring and maybe you'll catch it too!

2005-08-06T23:10:00.000-05:00

Well...my sunburn is gone, along with the pain. The only thing that sucks is that it has turned into itching and a lot of peeling. The peeling I don't mind so much...I actually like it. I just don't like how my skin looks after I peel the dead stuff off. It's true, I do look like I have some sort of skin disease...but I'm dealing with it. Jesus thinks I'm beautiful. When I went to the doctor he said it could be worse but I definitely should never do it ever again because I would be at high risk of skin cancer, and he also gave me a prescription for some creme that I was supposed to buy. The prescription dude ended up taking too long so I had to leave to go to work and never ended up going back because I figured I could tough it out...and I did. He told me that I shouldn't be out in the sun until it completely heals, but that could be a problem because it's looking like I'm gonna be going with my family to Milville, Minneapolis on tuesday for a week for the Spring Creek races...woops, sorry Dr. Jowett. I should be finding out on monday if I'm getting accepted for my line of credit from the bank...so keep your fingers crossed, and if you're feeling like a Christian you could even pray (I'm counting on you here Joe...I prayed for you, lol).
I've been pretty bored lately. I'm so greatful that God has brought my friend Jaime into my life because without her I might be going insane right now. When we're together we always have a great time...even though the only thing we can usually think of to do is rent a movie. Yesterday night I finally was able to make it to youth because I wasn't booked to work. We ended up going to Union Gospel Missions, which is a building that's basically for homeless people to go eat, as well as some other stuff like chapel, etc. We just kinda helped prepare the meal and then put it out on the tables to be eaten. I had a great time though. Me and Jaime are masters at spreading horseradish and cutting tomatoes. I kinda wish that we could have stayed there all night to just talk to those people. Maybe I could have said something to one of them that they would remember forever or that would give their life just a little bit more hope. It just makes me so sad. I wonder if they have hopes and dreams? Or do you think they've already given up on that? There are so many things in my life that I have yet to do, and so many things that I dream of doing...but what if I had these same dreams, except no way of accomplishing them? That would be a sad life to live, and I respect the people that have nothing for still pulling through even though there seems to be no hope. Or is there? Is it possible that they're waiting for something more? I hope that they keep waiting...even expecting.
As for the sports world...the Bombers lost tonight, I was said. But Gilles almost got the first touchdown. I was so proud of him, his foot was right on the line! I feel kinda like Kevin right now talking about sports in my blog. Wow, scarey. Haha, just kidding buddy...you're dating my bestfriend, so you're cool.

Ouch.

2005-08-02T12:35:00.000-05:00

This is what happens when you lay on the beach for 6 hours strait with no sunscreen on when it's 30 degrees outside...I highly recommend not doing it! The pictures don't do it justice at all. I have to go to the doctor today because my face is all swollen and I'm moving around the house like a mommy. I couldn't even shower today because the pressure of the water is too much for my skin. My stomach and my legs are even worse than my face...sleeping last night was a nightmare. I'm the type of person that has to learn my lessons the hard way...I've always been like that...I wish I was smarter.
Update on my spiritual life...well yesterday I was talking to my friend Joel and he asked me if I'm happy, and I realized that lately I haven't been happy. But because I haven't been happy I have been relying on God and it has brought me closer to Him...so I guess that's a good thing. It's a good feeling to be able to sit at home alone crying and talk to God like He's a real person standing right next to me. For the first time in awhile I could express myself exactly how I wanted to without worrying about being judged. I told Him exactly what I was feeling, what I've been doing wrong, I asked questions I want answers to, I admitted that I can't do a lot of things that I'm expected to be able to do...and although it was hard to admit it all out in the open, it was humbling and a huge weight was lifted off my back. Once I had drained my mind of all my thoughts and all my many confessions I knew there was only one more thing I had to say..."please forgive me"...and God said, "of course I will silly."

La Vita E Belle

2005-07-30T00:10:00.000-05:00

I'm pretty sure La Vita E Belle means "life is beautiful". I have great news...I am in love! Madly in love! I haven't yet got my hands on it, but once I do I will never let it go. I'm in love with the movie that I am showing above. After working until 10 tonight I came straight home, grabbed a chocolate chip muffin and a huge cold glass of milk and curled up on the couch expecting to watch a few humorous shows and then go to bed. I saw that a movie was on one of the channels but didn't really bother to see what it was all about because what kind of a movie called "Fools Rush In" could actually be that good right? Wrong! After discovering that nothing else was on I gave up and turned to the movie channel. I decided to keep watching because Matthew Perry is hilarious...and it was honestly the best movie I have ever seen. There's nothing really even that special about it, I just absolutely loved it! It's just so romantic, and cute, and funny...and awesome! It was made in 1997 so it's not exactly new, but wow. All I know is that I must find it, and I must own it! Immediately!! If I ever find out that any of you own it, I will hunt you down and steal it...and if I ever find out that any of you buys it after reading this blog, I will hunt you down and kill you...and then steal it from you. Ok!

Have a great long weekend...seriously...I hope you don't all have to work like I do.

As my Dad's cousin Renold always says, "Has anybody told you today that Jesus loves you?"

The Sisterhood Of The Traveling Pants

2005-07-28T09:28:00.000-05:00

I don't know about you guys, but I've never read any of those books (The Sisterhood Of The Traveling Pants) so naturally when my friend Jaime and I went to go see the movie on tuesday night I was expecting a little children's movie that would be difficult to stay awake in. But here's the thing...the movie's actually really good. I found myself tearing up about 3 times, and I never ever cry in movies (except The Horse Whisperer, and well now The Wedding Singer) so me tearing up is a pretty big thing. Overall, I think it was a pretty good experience for the both of us...especially when some guy came and told us to take our feet off the seats, because I'm sure the other 15 people in the theatre were extremely bothered by it. Or how about when Carman hit Paul in the head with the Tennis ball and he was laying on the ground looking up at her and I said "he's hot!" fairly loud in order for Jaime to hear me over everyone's elses laughing, only to realize that they had stopped laughing by the time I had said it. It was a good night. The last few nights have been, well, okay. Last night on the way home from work I heard the song I'm Just A Kid by Simple Plan on the radio and it reminded me of myself the last couple of nights. Haha...ok so that's a bit overboard, but some parts of the song reminded me of me. I've got a meeting with Jim at the bank on wednesday or thursday. Pray that everything goes well so I can get the loan and go back to cpc.

I Bet You Didn't Know That About Me!

2005-07-25T20:13:00.000-05:00

I've been up since 6 am because we had an Old Navy fitting rooms team meeting at 7 this morning...not cool! And the weird thing is, I just feel like cleaning right now, not going to bed. You don't hear that everyday. My cousin Mark wants me to move to Arizona and live with him. Him and his roomates said all I would have to do is clean, I wouldn't have to pay...think I should do it? Haha, it would never work because I couldn't get a job there (unless my Uncle paid me under the table)...but I think it would be pretty awesome. Mark is 23 and he's soooo much fun, so I would definitely have a good time. I don't think I could live with 3 guys though. It would feel so wrong and I would probably hate it after about a week.
But ya, here's one of those thingies for you all to learn more about me. The ones with x's beside them are the things I HAVE done...

( ) smoked a cigarette
( ) smoked a cigar
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car
( ) been in love
(x) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight
( ) snuck out of my parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back.
( ) been arrested
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
(x) skipped school
( ) seen someone die
(x) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(x) Been to the U.S.
(x) been on a plane
( ) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
(x) been moshing at a concert
( ) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel
(x) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
( ) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake id
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake
( ) slept beneath the stars
(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed
(x) been misunderstood
(x) pet a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
(x) run a red light
( ) been suspended from school
(x) been in a car accident
( ) had braces
(x) felt like an outcast
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
( ) danced in the moonlight
(x) hated the way you look
( ) witnessed a crime
(x) questioned your heart
( ) been obsessed with post-it notes
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
( ) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
( ) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
( ) danced in the rain
( ) written a letter to Santa Claus
( )been kissed under the mistletoe
(x)watched the sun set with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire
( ) crashed a party
(x)gone rollerskating/blading
(x) had a wish come true
(x) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) ate dog/cat food
( ) told a complete stranger you loved them
(x) sang in the shower
( ) had a dream you married someone
( ) glued your hand to something
( ) tongue stuck to a flag pole
(x) worn the opp. sexes clothes
( ) cheerleader
( ) sat on a roof top
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for 6 hrs
(x) stayed up all night
(x) didn't take a shower for a week
(x) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
(x) had a tree house
(x) scared 2 watch scary movies alone
( )believe in ghosts
( ) own more than 30 prs of shoes
(x) worn a really ugly outfit to school
( ) gone skinny dipping
(x) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x ) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
(x ) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
( )caught a fish then ate it
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x ) cried so hard you laughed
(x) cheated on a test
(x) have a Britney Spears CD
(x) forgotten someone's name
( ) French braided someones hair
( ) been kicked out of your house

I Wanna Grow Old With You...

2005-07-24T01:05:00.000-05:00

I just finished watching The Wedding Singer. I haven't watched it in a really long time, so when I saw that it was on TV I was so excited. What could be better than sitting at home on a saturday night all by yourself watching a really romantic movie....hmmm...who knows. One of my managers at Old Navy told me that my theme song should be "All by myself"...he even started singing it...I'm not really sure what he meant by that, but I'm assuming it's not good. Anyways, the outcome of watching the movie definitely wasn't what I had expected it to be because it brought up some old memories that I obviously wasn't prepared to think about. I ended up bawling when he started singing I wanna grow old with you. But it was kinda like a good cry...because the reason I was crying is because it's a good memory, I just miss it a lot. I'm glad I watched it though, and I really think I'm gonna buy it so I can watch it everyday.
But the reason I wanted to make a new post is an entirely different reason. I have a confession to make................tonight was the first time in a very long time that I was actually excited about going to church. I really do wish that every sunday I could be so pumped to go to church and spend more time with God that there would be no way to stop me from going...but it's not like that all the time (I'm just being honest). So tonight was kinda like a breakthrough for me. It's such an amazing feeling. I am so excited to wake up in the morning and head to church to sit on those wooden pews, worship, soak up God's Word, pray for every single person that pops into my head during the alter call, put my tithe in the offering plate (I'm especially excited about that for some reason), and answer "good" to all the "how are you's" and sincerely mean it. I know God has a huge smile on his face right now. I bet nothing makes Him feel happier than knowing that I'm as excited about Him as He is about me.
It's bedtime friends. "I wanna grow old with you"...yes you.

Embarrassment Central

2005-07-19T19:10:00.000-05:00

I don't really have much to say this time. On sunday morning I got in the shower and then suddenly the power went out. Normally it wouldn't be so bad, except my bathroom is in the basement, which means there is no window, which also means that it was pitch black in the room. I figured it would just be a couple of seconds and I would get my lights back...but noooo, the power stayed out for at least 45 minutes. So the moral of the story is, keep a candle and lighter handy before you take a shower, because it's pretty hard to do it in the dark. Also, yesterday I started working at Classic Trailers answering the phone and doing some paper work because, I'm not sure how many of you know, but Old Navy has been giving me, at the most, 20 hours a week...which just isn't enough. I try not to complain about it because I know God provided me with the job, but it was just time for something else. So I now have 2 jobs, and my job at Classic is so brutally easy it's crazy. I was there for 7 and a half hours today (I made my own hours, and work whenever I want!) and about half of the time I was reading a book. I'm reading this book called Nothing Too Good For A Cowboy. There is also a movie and a TV show based on the book. I know that most people probably wouldn't enjoy reading the book, but I am absolutely loving it so far. I'm a horseback rider, and the book is based on a true cowboy story that takes place in BC. By the end of the book I know I will be an expert cow handler.
I wasn't exactly sure what to write about that would keep my loyal audience interested, so I decided to show you guys a bit of my history...embarrassing style. I found some of the most discusting pictures I could find of myself in order for all of you to see that side of me. I think that it's time for everyone to know the truth...it's time for everyone to see the real Megan Natasha Klassen!

2005-07-19T19:08:00.000-05:00

Ok, so this one's pretty cute, I must admit.

2005-07-19T19:07:00.000-05:00

Can you say drugs?

2005-07-19T19:04:00.000-05:00

"Hey hunchback...what kind of idiot shaves their legs dry like that?!"

2005-07-19T19:03:00.000-05:00

I can't believe I won a trophy with that haircut!

2005-07-19T19:01:00.000-05:00

Holy hick shirt...

2005-07-19T18:58:00.000-05:00

Yes...that's the real me.

It Is Time...

2005-07-16T20:34:00.000-05:00

It can't be put off any longer...I know I know, it's amazing how long I've put it off already. But there is absolutely no way I can waste anymore time not talking about Michael Jordan! It would be, as Adam Brody says in Grind, "A freakin' outrage!!" For those of you that don't already know, I have been openly in love with Michael Jordan since I was in grade 5. From grade 5 until grade 7 I would refuse to wear any color but red, black, and white. My whole clothing attire consisted of only Chicago Bulls clothing. I wore my Michael Jordan shoes until my toes had nearly poked holes right through the end, and even now I own a pair of MJ shoes. I can remember crying when I first found out that he had retired, and having long arguments with Sarah and Joe about whether or not Vince Carter was better than him or not. I mean come on...Vince Carter! Please. Michael Jeffrey Jordan is one of those basketball players that could never ever be replaced, and decades from now people will still be talking about him. If someone were to ask me, "Megan, if you could ask for anything at all and get it, what would it be?" I would reply by saying, "Well of course it would be to meet Michael Jordan." And if I could have 2 wishes, the second one would be to marry his son Jeffrey.
So with all that said...I haven't been up to much of anything lately. I got off of work 2 hours early today because saturdays are always really slow. Mitchell and Branden left today...I woke up at 7:00am to go to the airport and say goodbye. I was really sad. They bought me a jacket that I had really been wanting to buy because I was basically their taxi service while they were here, even though I really didn't mind at all.
What's something that has really impacted me in the last couple of days? Well...when I was reading The Purpose Driven Life book the other night (yes I'm still reading it...I'm doing it at my own pace, and I'm perfectly fine with that) I came across this one sentence that Rick Warren had wrote and it went a little something like this, "Instead of thinking about how far they still have to go, think about how far they have come in spite of their hurts." This sentence really made me think. I read it over and over about 10 times. Sometimes the first thing we notice about a person is the number of things that they have to improve in their life. But what if we actually got to know the person and began looking at the progress they have already made through all of their struggles and all the pain. I dunno, that's just been something that has really been on my mind lately. It was really helpful to me...so maybe it will help you. Who knows.
Later.

2005-07-11T14:40:00.000-05:00

This is all of us getting ready to watch those 3 movies last night. That's me on the couch (obviously), and that's my cousin Mitch sharing the couch with me. My brother Ryan is on the other couch, and on the ground is Branden on the left, and my other brother Justin on the right. Jason showed up later, and he was sitting on the empty couch. Good times.

2005-07-11T14:37:00.000-05:00

And for those of you who haven't seen me in awhile...I look exactly the same. Do I at least look a bit tanned?

And then there was Mitch...and Branden...

2005-07-11T12:07:00.000-05:00

This is a picture that I took in my backyard one night not too long ago...who knew Winnipeg skies could look like that hey?! I ended up taking a whole bunch of pictures of it because I thought it was so amazing. Someone told me yesterday that saturday night there were some wicked northern lights...I can't believe I missed it! The northern lights are my favorite thing about the sky. I definitely never take them for granted.

But anyways, on to the important stuff. I noticed that, according to my standards, I haven't blogged in a really really long time. I realized that it's because my cousin Mitchell(17) and his bestfriend Branden(18) are visiting from Flagstaff, Arizona. I haven't seen Mitch in just over a year, so it's definitely been good to spend a lot of quality time with him. It's also been awesome having Branden here because I have never met someone that is as positive as him. They've been here since wednesday and I haven't heard him complain once. He just always talks about how good everything is, which is super encouraging to be around. I asked my Mom if we could keep him because he's really funny as well. He always says the word "Snap" and he does this hilarious little giggle that gets me everytime. Me, Mitch, Branden, my bro Justin, and my friend Ashley all went to the zoo on thursday during the day, and the best part is that we snuck in through the staff gate so we didn't have to pay. I used to work at the zoo last summer so I knew that before 4 o'clock the staff gate isn't locked...so that was pretty awesome. Last night all of us went to Blockbuster and rented 3 scarey movies...well they were supposed to be scarey. We rented IT, House Of The Dead (don't ever rent that movie! Seriously), and Mystic River. We started watching the movies around 11:00 pm, and out of 6 of us only me, Mitch, and Justin made it through all 3 movies. I knew I wouldn't fall asleep because that's always been something I could never do...fall asleep during movies. I'm the best person for pulling all nighters with...there are only 2 people that have truly experienced the all nighter side of me, and one of them is God. So we were up until after 4:00 am watching all 3 of those movies...the only reason I stayed up to finish watching House Of The Dead is because my cousin wanted me to because nobody else would. It's a terrible movie, never ever watch it. Never! Hmm...what else has been going on. Well, I called in sick for work yesterday so I could go watch my brother's and my Dad race. I know it was wrong, and you can judge me if you want, but I'm glad I did it. I got a great tan, and a bit of a burn, so that was pretty cool. But that's about the extent of my most exciting stories for now.

Oh yeah, the snack of the day is definitely brownies...I had one this morning, and wow.

A bath a day keeps the lonely bug away!

2005-07-04T00:24:00.000-05:00

I know that it's after midnight so "technically" it's already monday, but in my books it's still sunday night, so we're gonna go by my time schedule okay. I just recently got out of the bathtub, and let me tell you, it was awesome. I'm home alone until tomorrow night and when I'm home alone I usually end up hating it if I have nothing to do because I get extremely lonely and start feeling, as some might call it, slightly depressed. I've always had that problem. Everyday I wish my family would go away and stop nagging me, but when they're gone to the lake and they leave me alone because I have to stay and work at Old Slavy, I get really lonely. I had been watching tv all night after I got home from work, but finally I got fed up and decided to go pick up the mail because of all the things that I could have been doing at 10:30 pm, that was the only thing I could think of...imagine that. All I got in the mail by the way was a cell phone bill. On the way home from my trusty mailbox I realized (why do I always realize things while I'm driving home from places?) that in order to stop feeling depressed I should probably do something that involves a goal that I must achieve. I haven't done any of that yet of course, all I've achieved so far is the bath, but I'll be getting to the rest. But the bath definitely did the trick. I made it so hot my toes tingled, I put in a mother load of bubbles, I lit 6 candles, and I listened to the whole Bryce Avary cd (Hello Good Friend), which I might add was the perfect bathtub listening music. The only thing that could have made that bath any better would have been a cold glass of iced tea and someone to take my cat away so he would stop "meowing" at the door...he gets lonely as well. So basically, it's been a pretty good night so far. Yay for doing stuff other than watching tv!! Man I miss Sarah...I can't believe you're gone for a whole week Sarah!!! I was so tempted to call her house today just so I could talk to Joe and pretend she was there...or even pretend that Joe was her...that's not creapy is it??!! Hello. Good bye. I'm hyper. Don't know why.

Useless

2005-07-02T22:41:00.000-05:00

Snack of the day: Vanilla youghurt with granola in it.

I have sat here in this computer chair for the past five minutes and maybe a few seconds trying to think of something useful and entertaining to write about. Something that might expand the knowledge that each of you carries in your brain in some way...anything at all. And what did I come up with? Ya, nothing. All that thinking and I couldn't think of one single interesting thing to write about. So maybe I'll just talk quickly about what God has been teaching me in the last little bit. I can't write much because we are currently experiencing a fricken scarey thunderstorm and I think I might pee my pants...speaking of peeing, Justin I can't wait to talk to you next because I have something extremely funny/strange/gross to tell you. But anyways, lately God has been teaching me patience. In my last post I had said that I was frustrated with my parents (mostly my Mom) because I felt like they didn't understand me. God has just recently told me what He wants me to do with my life, and when I told my Mom she suddenly began listing off all these reasons why it wouldn't work. I just really feel that she doesn't understand me when I say "THIS IS WHAT GOD WANTS ME TO DO!!!!!" It doesn't matter if it seems like it's impossible because God will make it work. So I was really struggling with that, but I think I really need to calm down and let God take over. He'll make everything work out the way it should, right? So that's about all I got for now. I went to a wedding today...it was romantic.......

I'm Super.

2005-06-29T12:39:00.000-05:00

Hurray for parents that think you're lying when you tell them what God wants you to do...seriously, Hu-fricken-rray. That reminds me of The OC episode when Seth says, "Eureka. Eu-freakin-reka." Haha, sounded like he said "you wreaka". I need prayer...please. Parents are overly frustrating sometimes. I would explain the situation but I'm not up for telling who knows how many people...but if you ask I'll definitely tell you. Thanks guys!

Desperate Housewife

2005-06-27T11:48:00.000-05:00

Snack of the day: Tapioca pudding...wow, I am so gonna make some!

I know I just blogged yesterday...but there's just so much to be said. I never realized until today how much I take our vehicles for granted, especially living in the country. I'm home alone all day today, with no possible way of getting anywhere, other than walking. I feel trapped and alone. Maybe if I was cool like Justin I would have a bike to ride places, but I don't. If I lived in the city I could at least walk somewhere...anywhere...but no, I live in the middle of a field where there is nothing to do but clean the house like a maid. So that's what I'm doing. Being trapped at home is something that I hate, but at the same time is something that I absolutely love. I'll explain later why I love it, right now I must tell you my discusting story of the day. It all started with the simple task of cleaning my dog's food bowl out. No problem right?...Think again. My dog has this problem with his asophagus, so we have to water down his food in order to make it soggy or else he'll just end up puking it back up. This usually doesn't cause any problems, unless it sits too long, in which case it gets all moldy and nasty. When Mom asked me to clean out Max's bowl, I had no idea just how nastified (such a Sarah word) it really was. What had once been known as watered down dog food had transformed into a huge bowl of mold covered moosh. I'm a country girl though, so it was nothing I couldn't handle because I've got a pretty strong stomach. So I carried it into the kitchen, turned the tap to the sink on and began dumping the mixture into the garberator side of the sink. It was at this point that I had to throw down the bowl and take a few steps back. Who knew that adding warm water could cause such a terrible chemical reaction and make the room instantly wreak of 100 year old garbage. You know when you smell something so discusting that you can feel the puke in your throat and you get the burning sensation? Well that's what happened to me in that moment. I then convinced myself that it really wasn't as bad as it appeared and that all I had to do was run the water until it was all down and then turn the garberator on and it would all be over with. So I slowly moved my way back to the sink and pulled the now empty bowl out, only to find......what?? Why was the soggy food not going down?! Yep, that's right...I forgot to take the plug out of the sink. At this point the sink is about 1/4 full. So I turned the water off, closed my eyes, and stuck a single finger right in the middle of the sink. It felt so gross that my first instinct was the pull my hand out and run...I pulled my hand out but overcame the urge to run. I went in for round 2...this time I didn't pause, I just went for it. I grabbed the plug and pulled as hard as I could. There was a bunch of gurgling sounds as the dog food slowly went down the drain. I quickly turned the water back on and flicked the switch for the garberator...phew! Bet you're all glad I made it out of that one alive.
But anyways, back the the reason why I love not having a vehicle. It's not so much that I love not having a vehicle as it is that I love feeling like my family has problems, like most people. My whole life we've never struggled with anything, everything has always been perfect. My friends always made jokes about us being rich, and I hated it. Ya sure me and my brothers would occasionally get in trouble and get yelled at, but not once have I seen my parents fight, and not once has there ever been something that we need but couldn't afford. In the movie In Good Company, the girl that's dating/seeing/sleeping around with Eric from That 70's Show (whatever his name is in the movie, I have no idea) says at one point that she is "cursed with a normal family". That has always been exactly how I feel. But with all 3 of our dirtbikes getting stolen, me crashing our car, my brother running into our rental car with our Tahoe, my parents struggling with money because they paid for me to go to college, I finally feel like things are the way they should be. Don't get me wrong, I have never prayed that my family would go through struggles like this, but now that it's happening I've realized that I really don't mind all that much. If I was my parents it would probably be a completely different story because they're the ones that have to deal with it...but sometimes I just wish that as a family we could settle for less. Why do we need all this stuff? I dunno, once again, maybe I'm just weird...who knows.
Oh yeah! Guess what? I started sponsoring a kid today!!! It was so weird. I decided to take a 10 minute break from cleaning, so I sat down on the couch to watch some tv. I turned it on, and it was on the World Vision channel. I watched for a total of like 5 seconds and God said "do it!" So I grabbed the phone and called. So now I'm sponsoring a 6 year old girl named Sabatha (I think that's what her name was). I forget what country she's from but I'll be getting all the info in the mail in about a week. She has 2 brothers and both of her parents are still alive. I'm also paying an extra $5 a month that goes toward AIDS and stuff, which is pretty awesome. I'm so happy right now I could do a dance. But I should probably get back to my cleaning...*sigh*. I'm so lonely.

Inside and Out

2005-06-26T12:17:00.000-05:00

Snack of the day: Cinnamon and sugar on toast, with a huge glass of milk. That would really hit the spot right now.
Who do I miss the most right now?: Justin, his Mom, and his Grandma.
What am I struggling with right now and could use prayer for?: Reading my Bible...but that's an everyday thing.
What do I wish I was doing right now?: Oddly, on a missions trip in the most poor country in the world....or else picking up a hitchhiker...for some wierd reason.

I have this unwritten, unspoken, and unthought of theory about myself that not a single person in the entire world understands me or the way I think. My theory is true of course, but that's no ones fault, that's just the way it is. There are a few select people, like Sarah and my brother Ryan, that know me better than any other person, but no one that truly understands me. That has always been something that I've struggled with in the past because of course I want someone that can totally relate to me. Someone that I can explain myself to and have it completely make sense to them. It is for this reason that I have always had a problem opening up to people because I'm scared that they won't understand me and just end up judging me. I was thinking about all of this the other day, except this time it was different. I was on my way home from somewhere and I realized that I don't need anyone to understand me, because God understands me completely. He is the only one that knows me inside and out, because he created me. He knows what I'm thinking before I even think it. I no longer feel alone or worried about what people will think if I try to explain the way I feel about something because I know that God created me with this brain and He created me to think this way. In the past it has always bothered me that most people are horrible listeners. If I have a problem I usually just try and deal with it myself because whenever I try to explain it to someone they never fail to try way too hard to give me advice, when all I really want is someone that will just listen to me. But now I appreciate the people that try their best to give me advice, and I feel at peace with the fact that God will always listen. He won't say a single word unless it is needed.
So that's my little tidbit for the day. Friday night I was a grad escort for my friend Adam. It was an alright night. During the dinner I found myself sitting at the table with his parents eavesdropping on their conversation because I didn't find my friends conversations at all interesting or knowledgeable (is that a word?). I didn't get home until 5:00 am, and I slept until 3:30 pm...so it was a wierd day yesterday. I am extremely frustrated with a current situation in my life that I am not going to explain...because no one will understand, haha. Prayer would be nice though. I think I'm done for now.

Bagels and Cream Cheese

2005-06-22T21:45:00.000-05:00

"Tempted by the fruit of another. Tempted but the truth is discovered. What's been goin' on. Now that you have gone. There's no other." Thank you so much Old Navy for getting this wonderful song stuck in my head. I hear it about 23 times while I'm at work, so I can't help but sing it for the rest of the day in my head...but today, it got so bad that I actually sang it out loud to my Mom. Now that my friend is something you don't see everyday. I don't just sing out loud for many people. Also, I've decided that the official snack of the day is going to be mini bagels and cream cheese...simply because I love bagels and cream cheese, but they're so huge, it's like a meal to me...but when I got home from work today (I know I wasn't supposed to work all week, but I got called in, and it was nice to have something to do), what did I discover?? Sitting on our kitchen counter was a big fresh bag of mini, yes mini, bagels. The perfect snack size! I decided to have one...and it was perfect. Plus they're pre-sliced, so you don't even have to worry about cutting them in half. Isn't that super?! So there ya go, the snack of the day.
What have I been up the the last couple of days you ask? Well I'll tell you. Monday I did basically nothing all day. I did a bit of cleaning around the house, then just kinda bummed around. Later in the afternoon I received a phone call from Justin, telling me that him and the band (Joel, Todd, Tyler, and Terry) would be arriving in Winnipeg in a couple of hours and then heading strait to where their show would be held (Dakota Church). I called up my friend Jaime and asked her if she wanted to go to a show with me (I promise I don't use my friends for transportation...), and she said she would love to. So at around 6:30 away we went to Dakota Church for a long and exciting night of watching 5 different bands. Turned out that Threadline was playing as well, which was awkward. Blair (the lead singer of Threadline) dedicated the song Forever Yours to me and Jaime because it's our favorite song of theirs. That was pretty exciting. The show went late and then we headed home. The band was staying at my house that night so they showed up about an hour later. Didn't get much sleep that night, I won't tell you how much, but it wasn't much. Tuesday, which was yesterday, pretty much everybody slept in until after lunch time. We made pancakes for brunch I guess it was...well okay, Justin made pancakes, and bacon, and eggs...I set the table though. Then we got ready for an eventful day of travelling to different music stores, and then eventually seeing a movie. We ended up seeing Batman Begins......it was an alright movie.......k, so I didn't really like it, but I'm sure most people would. It seemed really long, and I just really liked Batman and Robin from back in the day. Mostly because I had a crush on Robin, whatever his name is...he was cute. It just didn't cut it for me I guess. I think everyone else enjoyed it though, so I still recommend it. No worries, Hayden Christiansen (Annakin) is not in it, haha. So that was the last couple of days. Today I got called into work from 12-6, and my friend Tracy was back after 2 weeks off because of wrecking her ankle in some way, so that was really awesome. That's about all I got for now. Thanks for listening. "Tempted by the fruit of another"....oh boy.

Thought For The Day: Happiness

2005-06-20T11:17:00.000-05:00

I was thinking today (Ya I know, amazing ain't it). I was thinking about what it feels like to be truly happy...a feeling I have felt many many times before, yet have never grown tired of it, and never will. It's a feeling that we get because of the smallest and most simple things. Things that make us happy. When I woke up this morning I didn't feel happy....but don't worry, I wasn't depressed, it was just one of those days. I realized today that I've been feeling like that a lot lately, which is why I started thinking about the things that make me truly happy, and why it is that they make me happy. I think the reason I've been feeling this way is because I have a job now, which means I have money to spend. I work approximately 25-30 hours a week and am making $7.50/hour, so therefore I am bringing in, on average, $500 every 2 weeks. I know to a lot of people that would just be "pocket change" (as someone once told me, haha...you know who you are), but to me that is a lot of money! When I was at CPC I had no income. All I had was the money I saved up...and I was perfectly happy during those 8 months. In fact, I've never had a better time in my entire life. I love the feeling of, for example, finding that perfect pair of shoes and then having to save as much money as possible just to be able to buy them. Yeah sure, waiting until you have enough money seems like a lifetime...but once you buy those shoes, there's no way there is another person in the world that's as happy as you in that moment. I love the feeling of receiving a gift from someone that you have always wanted but you knew you could never afford it. I love being completely greatful for the things I have and the things I receive. I'm hoping that with the new purchase of a cell phone, and possibly the purchase of a car (because with one less car in the family we're kinda struggling) it will cut back most of my spending money. And when it gets to that point there's no doubt that I'll complain once or twice about not having enough spending money...I'm not perfect. At least I know what makes me happy. I want to start sponsoring a child. I want to give anything extra away to a better cause. It's funny because I don't have a single shift at work this week, and the first thought that crossed my mind was "sweet, my pay cheque is gonna be so small." Am I weird? That can't be normal.
So that's my thought for the day. Rock on!!

Good, Great, Grand, Wonderful...

2005-06-13T12:02:00.000-05:00

I haven't made a new post in such a very long time because I was waiting for something exciting to happen in my life, because that rarely ever happens.......and finally, it happened! It happened yesterday, June 12, at around 12:55pm. I was eastbound on the Perimeter 100 in my 2005 red special edition Monte Carlo pace car on my way to work at Old Navy St. Vital. As I was approaching the intersection of Highway 330 going into La Salle I noticed a few vehicles passing over in front of me and then on the left I saw a blue car (cavelleir to be exact) waiting to cross over as well. I was getting closer to the intersection, and just as I was about to pass it (going approximately 105 kms/hr)...BAM!!! Suddenly there was an airbag in my face and I was skidding sideways at full speed strait toward the ditch. A thought crossed my mind..."Wow there's a huge drop into that ditch". There was no time for action though. Still gripping the wheel I crashed into the ditch, continued to skid forward until I hit the massive puddle and came to a halting stop as dirty ditch water and grass splashed inside my car and all over me. I sat there in shock still gripping the wheel. Was I dreaming? My first thought..."Hey the airbags went off!" My second thought..."I'm gonna be late for work, I better call them." My third thought..."Where's my new cell phone??" I didn't know what to do, so I just sat there waiting. Finally a man walked over and opened my door. There were people and cars everywhere. He asked me if I was okay...I said, "I don't know". He told me to get out of the car, but when I looked at the ground I saw that there was about a foot of water for me to walk out into. "But I'm wearing my brand new Puma shoes" I thought to myself. I guess getting out of the car strongly outweighed how important my new shoes are. As I was walking back to the highway with the kind man a police car was just arriving on the scene. I sat in the cop car and called my Dad. The blue car that had cut me off had completely spun around (because I hit its back end) and knocked over a stop sign. Not long after there were 2 firetrucks there, 2 cop cars, 2 ambulances, and many many people. They had to stop and direct traffic and everything. To shorten the story up a bit...the girl I hit I actually went to highschool with, she was driving a rental car, but she is completely okay. If I had hit the passenger door it could be a totally different story though. I sat in the ambulance until my Dad got there, I had to give my name like a total of 150 times, as well as explain what happened 150 times. My Monte Carlo is now gone forever...which means that there is only 1 of the same car left in Manitoba.
How do I feel today? I am aching all over. Even my fingers were swollen last night. My chest hurts if I breathe in really fast or if I laugh because of the seatbelt. If I wasn't wearing my seatbelt I would have gone through the windshield and would probably not be alive right now. The good news is that I'm gonna be getting free massages out of it, as well as a few days off work. I will never get my Hillsons CD back though, because that is what I was listening to at the time, so it's stuck in the car. At least Bryce Avery was okay though, and my Bible didn't even get wet like the rest of the stuff. I would post the pictures on here, but I still have no idea how to do that...if someone tells me how then I'll post them ASAP. So that my exciting story of the week. Have a nice day!

Ohh Anakin...

2005-06-07T17:48:00.000-05:00

Hello again. So today I went to go see Star Wars Episode III with my good friends Sarah Kendrick and Adam Klassen. It was an all around good movie, I really did enjoy it...except for one thing. Me and Adam (who is actually my twin brother, we were just separated at birth...kinda like Luke and Leah) were both discussing how much we think the actor (whatever his name is) that plays Anakin Skywalker/Darth Vader really is just not that good at acting. I mean, we appreciate his effort and everything and fully support him, but why does he suck so bad? As we were having a nice conversation about his lack of talent Sarah decideds to join in and start telling us that he actually doesn't suck at all and that we should like him because he's Canadian or something. She thinks that there is no way he could possibly be bad at acting because the directors would never make such a mistake as this...however, Adam and I disagree. We still stand strong in our belief that they wanted the poor soul to play the part of Anakin because he'd be cheap and unknown. Because of his part it will definitely help him with future jobs...but it still doesn't change the fact that he needs a few acting lessons. Sarah seems to think that Adam and I are the only ones that feel this way, but once again, we disagree.
So what I need right now is everyone elses opinion. Let me know what you think of Anakin Skywalker...if you have seen his acting. And if you haven't seen it, then I strongly recommend seeing Star Wars. The goodness of the movie makes up for what's his faces weak spots. Your comments will be greatly appreciated. Thanks!

Top 15 Reasons Why I Would Marry Bryce Avary:

2005-06-05T19:39:00.000-05:00

For those of you who don't know of Bryce Avary, I am very sorry that you are missing out and you should immediately listen to some of his music. For those of you who don't like Bryce Avary for some retarded reason, you need to get your ears checked because even if he's not your style or whatever he's still freakin' amazing. And for those of you who are smart like me and do like Bryce Avary, you get a gold star because who wouldn't like him?
This is my list of reasons why I would marry Bryce Avary the very second I met him without even getting to know him first.

1) His voice is high, strong, and awesome...that alone is good enough for me. One of the best voices I've ever heard.
2) His band is called The Rocket Summer, which consists of himself, himself, himself, and himself. This means that he does all the singing and plays all the instruments...which also means that he could play me any instrument anytime. What more do I need?
3) He's corny and cheesy (watch his music videos!), which is something that I find completely adorable.
4) He's got good dressing style.
5) Everytime I hear his music I can't help but be in a good mood. So if I was mad at him all he would have to do is sing and I would completely forget why I was mad in the first place.
6) He's 22, so I'm not being totally unrealistic.
7) His lyrics are cute, romantic, and cheesy.
8) He's got a huge wonderful smile. Smile is the first thing I notice about a guy.
9) I love travelling, so I wouldn't mind following him around as he tours.
10) He's a blondey, and I don't usually go for blondey's, so everyone would know that I didn't just like him for his looks (he's actually pretty cute though).
11) He opens up the floor for couples to dance during one of his slow songs at his concerts...how awesome is that??!!
12) I can't seem to take either of his cd's out of the cd player because I don't want to listen to anything else...so wouldn't it just be that much more amazing if I was married to him?!
13) He's a twig like me so we would look good together.
14) He's hyper on stage. That must mean he's a fun person! He has to be!!!
15) Megan Avary sounds good and he wrote the song "Skies So Blue"...need I say more?

If this didn't make you want to check out The Rocket Summer...then I don't know what will. The guy's incredible.
Until next time, stay fit and have fun.

Here's The 411

2005-06-03T23:18:00.000-05:00

It's friday night, and I'm sitting at home. I had to work until 10:00 tonight...I strongly dislike working until 10 because it's not too late to do something but almost too late to call people to see if they want to do something. I have not been up to much of anything lately...basically just work, and on special days I get to hang out with Sarah, which is always good (Jealous Kevin??). Working at Old Navy is pretty boring. I'm on what is called the "fitting room team"...I think it's pretty self explanatory. What I do all day is fold shirts and put clothes on hangers and ask customers "how did those work out for you?" or "how many clothes do you have to try on?" or "do you need me to get you any other sizes?" It has become so much like a routine that the other day when a lady was coming out of her changing room because she was done I walked over to her and said "how many do you have to try on?"...she just looked confused and I felt like an idiot. But having an income instead of nothing at all isn't that bad. I'm looking into getting a car pretty soon but I'm not gonna say what kind cuz I don't want to get my, or anyone elses, hopes up.
The most recent exciting event in my life is that on sunday night I took a 5 hour road trip (by myself) to Estevan Saskatchewan to visit some old friends. I stayed at my friend Joel's house until tuesday night. We watched I think every single episode of the show Scrubs (he has them on DVD), we watched a bunch of Boy Meets World episodes (he also has those on DVD, and that is my all-time favourite show), we watched a movie about a lady that kills her husbands...or so you think, we went to play pool (I just watched), we suntanned outside while eating popcorn...and that's about all we did for 3 days. Sometimes it's just nice to be completely lazy.
Can someone please tell me how to put pictures on this thing?!!! Trust me, if you tell me how this blog will be a lot more interesting. All I have to say for now is...we couldn't figure out why my dog wasn't eating his food, we thought he was just being retarted...but we found out tonight that it was because it was all moldy. Gross!!

The temptation was too much!

2005-06-03T14:35:00.000-05:00

Ya know, I never thought this day would ever come...but it has. Please don't judge me. I told many people that I would never start a blog, but I have come to the conclusion that I was only making that promise during the time that I was attending CPC...which means now that I don't attend the school, I am free to do what I want. I figure, now that I don't talk to most of you simply because we're not living in the same building anymore and we're too lazy to call/e-mail each other, I should start a blog so you all will know what's going on in my life and therefore will have no excuse to say "man, I wonder what Megan's been up to?" This one's gonna be short cuz I'm off to Planet Tan to get some tanning in...(I'm being a grad escort. Haha, ya I know, crazy.) Stay tuned!